I guess I'm moving to California...?

I've been thinking about making the big move to California since this job search began in September. And now, five months later, I am still very much unemployed. After getting home from window shopping at the mall today, I started looking at plane tickets to California. I was actually able to find a pretty decently priced ticket for the coming Sunday! And then it went downhill from there...

5:35 - Find decently priced tickets to California!

5:36 - Immediately begin stressing out.

5:50 - Decide to help out with the dishes to avoid thinking about real life. 

5:55 - Proceed to cut myself when a glass I'm rinsing breaks.

7:30 - Wedding dress shopping to distract myself from real life (and to help Engaged Friend find a wedding dress).

9:30 - Talk to friends on gchat, watch youtube videos of people singing... Anything to distract myself from real life.

12:10 AM- Mention moving to California to a friend.

12:20 - Consult another friend on the big move to Cali. Friend doesn't provide very positive response. Proceed to start crying.

1:00 - Watch more youtube videos to distract myself.

1:28 - Gchat yet another friend on the big move.

1:40 - Proceed to start sobbing because life is just way too fucking hard

1:55 - Start throwing things while sobbing.

2:04 - Decide to try on Engaged Friend's old bridesmaid dress to calm myself down.

2:11 - Call friend (who happens to be awake, which I know because she is playing lots of QuizUp) and cry over the phone.

2:28 - Microwave leftovers to eat while crying over phone because I need to stress eat.

2:30 - Hang up and play QuizUp with said friend.

2:50 - Finally begin to order plane tickets. 

2:55 - Find ice cream bar in the freezer to calm myself down while I order tickets.

3:01 - Finally finally actually order the tickets!

So... guess I'm moving to California! (And I will definitely have a crying-hangover tomorrow morning.)

Job search update

I just found the perfect job. I mean it's not really perfect, but it's different from all the jobs I've been applying so far. It basically puts me back on the path of applying to graduate school while getting useful research done. I'm really excited about it because last week's job fair was basically useless. I didn't get any closer to getting a job (no interviews), and it was a big, fat waste of time and energy.

Now I'm really worried about getting my hopes up about this research assistant position. I really want it to work out. But every single time this past year that I've gotten my hopes up and fantasized about my dreams actually coming true, it ended up turning into shit.

I really really really really really hope it works out.

So much doubt...

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